Chasing Perfect

I am a completist. I hopt to do everything faultlessly. But there are so many faulty things which I hate. And at the same time I quitely know I am faulty too, so I hate myself too. So many things frustrated me. So many things upset me. I don't want to live in pains but I can't draw myself out.
I am chasing perfect. I will go on chasing. Maybe one day everything around me will be perfect. I hope to see that day.
I definitely know it is the existence of faulty that complete someone or something. One who is competent but makes mistakes is popurlar and the one who is competent too but always complete things perfect is not. I know the rule. But I don't want to change myself. Whatever others say, I will do be myself and chase perfect all the way.